I need to get SOME sort of outside help for my obsessive tendencies.
It’s getting ridiculous. My life is great, but I’m constantly worrying about ridiculous shit. Minutia. Crap.
I’m married to my soul mate. I have amazing friends. I live in an awesome house in an awesome city. I love my job and am damn good at it. I am in better shape than I was when I was 20. I lead an extremely healthy lifestyle.
But if any little tiny thing goes wrong (let’s say that I get sick and can’t work or go to the gym for a few days), I start to obsess. I worry about money, about how much weight I’ll gain by missing the gym, etc.
It’s ridiculous, and is actually kind of fucking with my physical well being. (Long story that I won’t go into now. Let’s just say that I experience physical symptoms from all of the stress I impose upon myself.)
I’m not even sure why I’m writing about this.
I guess that I figure that if I say it out in the open, I will get off of my crazy ass and go talk to someone / investigate meds etc.
Blah.
